La-la-la-la-life goes on.
I don't want this to sound cold or to make it seem as though I am totally over losing my grandpa. Because, honestly, I am totally not over it. Maybe not even a little over it, yet. The waterworks still start at random times when I catch a glimpse of a picture of him; and when they played Amazing Grace at church on Sunday... done for.
However, as anyone who has lost a loved one knows, life has to go on. In our house, there are diapers to be changed, little mouths to be fed and legos to be picked up before one of us steps on it. Even on the day that my grandpa passed, I had Kennedy with me (since I'm the food source). Seconds after he exhaled his final breath, there was an urgent need for a diaper to be changed (this later gave us a good laugh, since my grandpa was one of those guys who thought bodily functions were hilarious). I didn't want to change her. It felt disrespectful. It felt wrong to turn my attention elsewhere. But- the girl needed a change real bad. I looked at my mom, wondering what I should do, and she said the words that I guess I needed to hear, "It's ok- life goes on, baby."
The truth is, God does not intend for death to be an end. First and foremost, He never intended for there to be death, but we all know how that worked out (way to go Adam & Eve). And while loss is painful, Promise is bigger. It is not an end for my grandpa; it is not an end for us. God intends for life to carry on, and my grandpa would most certainly expect me to keep on keeping on. O death, where is your victory? O death, where is your sting? The victory is God's and knowing that, this little family of five continues living life... certainly with a grandpa-shaped-hole in our hearts, but living nonetheless.
Our littlest love sailed into her second month of life on June 1st, looking sweet and beautiful!
We celebrated Matt's grandma's 90th birthday with a little shindig... the kids were happy to be the "entertainment" for the afternoon, as well as to help clear the food table with their never ending appetites.
Since I've been a little preoccupied, I missed our Monthly Moments and Memories for May. I feel like the month went by in an instant, but here are a few sweet memories from May:
- Mother's Day celebration at Katie's school... I love it!
- Katie's first day of soccer!!
- Kennedy's sweet smiles
- Will's attempts at somersaults in our living room
- Family dance parties after dinner to our favorite Pandora stations
- My grandpa waking up enough to get a little joy from his third great-grandbaby
- Making our own popsicles
- Play time in the backyard
May went by in the blink of an eye. I can't believe that this year is almost half over already!